looking back at how i spent my day today and every other day in which i don't attempt to do anything academic related, i am filled with drive and passion about life and it's various possibilities and i believe this ultimately puts myself in a sad and difficult situation. i can't figure out how to direct this drive and energy into where it needs to be to get me where i want to be and this morphs each day into a chore of it's own which is absolutely not how i want to live in the present. i love learning and understanding everything in general but i hate to deal with feeling so overwhelmed all the time.