hell i luv them


Study mode #on man everyday from now i'm staying back 3x a week for fucking study dates + all those free periods = study study study I AM SO STOKED

yesterday studied with amandy tricia mel while edwina and jessie had their tutoring yipee productivest shit ever and played table soccer like there was no tomorrow! such a hapi day then had ice cream like the kiddos we were and i nearly forgot the way home.
Today fainted in the mornin and had a study date with jessie rachel aly and mel again and of course productive man P R O D U C T I V E AHHH SUCK THAT MAN SLACKERS I AM UNOFFICIALLY A CLOSET MUGGER AND DO NOT HAVE A LIFE BYE!!!!!!




Oh my holy I cant even I cant stop smiling. and smiling. pedoing on myself.


Hi yay today was super productive for my standards. School was fucking stupid tho had 4x of science periods after recess = 4x of seeing leng's face. catched up on 2hrs of sleep. I'M GOING FOR COALS! oh then after school had macs sogurt and a romantic study date hoboing with sharanya the dear bitch. saw this tom-the-wanted-look-alike in jack's place hurrrrhurrrr. Yeah finished math plus 1 history essay yay!!!! took 53 to whitesands and shopped for awhile with mum then went home lika 8pm and who cares wtf happens afterwards i want to sleep now good night!







So just now I had a nap and woke up, went back to sleep, woke up again, and forgot about the awesomest dream i've ever had. only remember the part where our school was on a cliff and chels told me about how she jumped off the cliff outside my class and I told her I used to do that too. I mean how does that make sense?? Aren't we dead lol k fuck my sad sad memory argh REMEMBER ANITA REMEMBER!!

Today was okay lah usual same old same old and had two geog ldqs and some course thing during TOP and got one movie ticket aww yeah after school on the bus there was this tommy boy throwing a huge tantrum. psht had burger king for lunch with dharnia then was gay in Guardian's. ahahahah how on earth do vibrating condoms vibrate. Had dinner someplace somewhat. English's tomorrow good luck everybody bye


hey nathan


hey. today's pretty much been a really hard day. well mentally, for me. I can't be myself without getting judged. and then again i'm already too judged it would be odd to change other's judgements of me. so all in all its about what others think. yeah sure i wish i could stop caring. but its never been easy. I can't choose what to feel.

School was shit. Couldnt even work in peace. Ting li was okay. After that study date with athena went horrible i barely did a thing, then ended up watching some faggot jap cartoon spirit show that used to freak the shit out of me 5 years back, and still does. Nothing's changed for the better. ugh just waiting for all this to end.




Hi ok i presume you're done with your stupid bzbd. thank you nicole dear mama for listening to my pointless whinings. I owe you baby! luvies. keep the studying going and you'll freaking ace everything & HISTORY!! you're amazing -inserts 3 gay faces-
i'll be here for you too when you need someone alright <3









This morning had cip at east coast! Woke up at about 4+ then reached ecp at 6. had to cheer on runners for some moe charity run. partnered wanlinaaa and saw mr tay mr chue mr leong mrs tan and some other teachers running ahaha got a high five from a sweaty mr tay woooohoo. screamed the good job cheer at least 70 times. after that had macs/subway for squad lunch then made my way to piano then had tuition and learnt a sort of life lesson then went running to clear my head. Shall study now.


Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a lifeWhere did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
How to save a lifeWhere did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life





h&m!!!

oh hi long time no see really not in the posting mood these days so i'm forcing my self to update this piece of gay shit... Okay so yesterday we made quiches for home ec!! was gross as hell so i only ate the sausages i mean hello how gross can baked eggs get??! Had two 听力s this week as practice and i'm determined to uh... pass.. 54% for hcl so i guess i'll be ok and got 16/25 for lit!! Alright i hope this is long enough to make up for the past... 10 day's worth of posts.
So today had usual pathetic excuse of education in the morning then sang gay songs in 2O then headed to whitesands with dharnia for lunch. I need to learn how to use punctuations man. oh yeah walked in 500 circles cuz apparently 81's gone from serangoon and yeah whatever had macs then headed home and then went out to town for dinner and did some work bys!!!




Woke up at 7 and took mrt to school for the first time in.... some time. training was awesome awwyeah and then went over to dharnie's house for cup noodles and supposedly final destination but whatever watched bourne instead and was extremely gay so i'm dead tired now bye bye




hey so today wake up call from tricia at 10+ and met her at eastpoint then came over to my house for harry potter marathon + food ahaha left at about 5 and went shopping till 6 then she left me ok bye.
A happy family day is ALWAYS a happy day.

I officially have severe and extremest moodswings. But right now all I'm sure of is I'm very depressed. And I don't know how to get better.

Soooo this morning had training then went shopping plus lunch and watched xmen again. Spent 5 hours on work you dk how proud i am of myself. hehe ok back to xmen again i have this weird thing for rewatching awesome shows oh well.







Happy birthday baby iffah this pic's dedicated to you :'''')

Hi. Today
was okay I guess now that I've gotten a firmer grip on reality things will gradually improve for me... morning was freaking lethargic though was contemplating ponning but oh well so had some pk course/test from morning till 5+ then
my sweet baby iffah's daddy sent dharnia natasya and I to pasir ris heeeheee so yeah mummy's back already!!!!!! big fat hug from her i'm a harpie kid now ^^ okay bye its playtime faggots!

stop judging. that shit really really hurts. from my fakest to my bestest friend, they all judge me, and I really hate it. i won't be able to trust anyone with my secrets because end of the day they'll assume and no one actually cares. no one but my mum and she isn't the type that will listen to me rant if I actually manage to phrase everything i'm thinking at one disastrous moment into words. and mummy isn't even here now so basically i'm going through one of the hardest phases of this year which may well be the worst of my fourteen years so far. and then i was looking through my old pictures and reading all those primary school birthday cards. i don't know how i stopped crying. I'll get through this alone. or not.