i can't fucking wait
POSTED ON Saturday, September 27, 2014 AT 3:55 PM \\
exactly a week from now
POSTED ON Monday, September 22, 2014 AT 11:33 PM \\
their entire album is just extremely relatable at the moment.
POSTED ON Tuesday, September 16, 2014 AT 12:43 AM \\
this music is beautiful
POSTED ON Friday, September 12, 2014 AT 9:56 PM \\
there's been this dull, slight ache lately -- just the past few days. i feel it when i wake up in the morning, then at night or sometimes in the early hours before i go to bed. it feels a little like loneliness, yet ever so slight i can't quite define it enough to come to a conclusion. i really haven't been expecting a lot from life, mostly just watching and doing what's at mind as it comes.
i find myself questioning literally everything around me and life has been a series of me shutting the world out a lot. it is a very pointless place, yet at times i think it is actually fucking beautiful. everything happens just because it has to, nothing else. everything is, as it is scientifically, nothing but matter. charged atoms and shit. people love simply because the molecules in their brains are wired to feel empathy. jealousy, hatred and anger. negative emotions are nothing but versions of our survival instincts at play and a follow-up to our brains telling us what it finds a threat against acceptance; survival and pleasure. there is literally so much of this shit going on in my head all the time it is fucking weird. sometimes i feel slightly afraid for/of myself and i am almost certain there is nobody i can communicate with anymore for i have ceased to see meaning in practically everything that means anything to them. everything just seems so superficial and unnecessary. i know that can very easily be proved wrong and that someone somewhere will always come up with an explanation to any and every question that i could come up with. i just feel really cold.
despite this overwhelming cynicism, i know from the very presence of this slight ache that i still want more out of this life. something is just always missing.
it never really leaves does it. and then i find myself back on here.
SOME BON JOVI
POSTED ON Thursday, September 11, 2014 AT 8:53 PM \\
It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life
This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky
Got to make your own breaks
have cleansed myself of social media -- technically just twitter and insta but more than enough to prove themselves a waste of life's vast potential. also proved to be a mild test of discipline. i am strong enough to resist. but then again perhaps it is one form of a investment in the people and relationships that still mean anything. i suppose i can only wait see where this takes me.
on a side note after much debate on whether to indulge in HP or batman last night i settled for a productively insightful 1.5h argumentative documentary on science vs religion. yeah i know LMAO all that haha well now time to apply some rational thought into the slightest things i've been semi-consciously dwelling on in other words LOVE LIFE RELIGION: the most fundamental perspectives could shape a mind so differently from another in other words it is an impossible life to live; comparable to one being lived with another species entirely
say yes
POSTED ON Monday, September 8, 2014 AT 5:53 PM \\
I'm in love with the world through the eyes of a girl
Who's still around the morning after
We broke up a month ago, and I grew up - I didn't know
I'd be around the morning after
It's always been wait and see
A happy day and then you'll pay
And feel like shit the morning after
But now I feel changed around
And instead of falling down
I'm standing up the morning after
Situations get fucked up and turned around sooner or later
I could be another fool or an exception to the rule
You tell me the morning after
Crooked spin can't come to rest
I'm damaged bad at best
She'll decide what she wants
I'll probably be the last to know
No one says it 'til it shows
See how it is, they want you or they don't
Say yes
i can't fucking wait
POSTED ON Saturday, September 27, 2014 AT 3:55 PM \\
exactly a week from now
POSTED ON Monday, September 22, 2014 AT 11:33 PM \\
their entire album is just extremely relatable at the moment.
POSTED ON Tuesday, September 16, 2014 AT 12:43 AM \\
this music is beautiful
POSTED ON Friday, September 12, 2014 AT 9:56 PM \\
there's been this dull, slight ache lately -- just the past few days. i feel it when i wake up in the morning, then at night or sometimes in the early hours before i go to bed. it feels a little like loneliness, yet ever so slight i can't quite define it enough to come to a conclusion. i really haven't been expecting a lot from life, mostly just watching and doing what's at mind as it comes.
i find myself questioning literally everything around me and life has been a series of me shutting the world out a lot. it is a very pointless place, yet at times i think it is actually fucking beautiful. everything happens just because it has to, nothing else. everything is, as it is scientifically, nothing but matter. charged atoms and shit. people love simply because the molecules in their brains are wired to feel empathy. jealousy, hatred and anger. negative emotions are nothing but versions of our survival instincts at play and a follow-up to our brains telling us what it finds a threat against acceptance; survival and pleasure. there is literally so much of this shit going on in my head all the time it is fucking weird. sometimes i feel slightly afraid for/of myself and i am almost certain there is nobody i can communicate with anymore for i have ceased to see meaning in practically everything that means anything to them. everything just seems so superficial and unnecessary. i know that can very easily be proved wrong and that someone somewhere will always come up with an explanation to any and every question that i could come up with. i just feel really cold.
despite this overwhelming cynicism, i know from the very presence of this slight ache that i still want more out of this life. something is just always missing.
it never really leaves does it. and then i find myself back on here.
SOME BON JOVI
POSTED ON Thursday, September 11, 2014 AT 8:53 PM \\
It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life
This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky
Got to make your own breaks
have cleansed myself of social media -- technically just twitter and insta but more than enough to prove themselves a waste of life's vast potential. also proved to be a mild test of discipline. i am strong enough to resist. but then again perhaps it is one form of a investment in the people and relationships that still mean anything. i suppose i can only wait see where this takes me.
on a side note after much debate on whether to indulge in HP or batman last night i settled for a productively insightful 1.5h argumentative documentary on science vs religion. yeah i know LMAO all that haha well now time to apply some rational thought into the slightest things i've been semi-consciously dwelling on in other words LOVE LIFE RELIGION: the most fundamental perspectives could shape a mind so differently from another in other words it is an impossible life to live; comparable to one being lived with another species entirely
say yes
POSTED ON Monday, September 8, 2014 AT 5:53 PM \\
I'm in love with the world through the eyes of a girl
Who's still around the morning after
We broke up a month ago, and I grew up - I didn't know
I'd be around the morning after
It's always been wait and see
A happy day and then you'll pay
And feel like shit the morning after
But now I feel changed around
And instead of falling down
I'm standing up the morning after
Situations get fucked up and turned around sooner or later
I could be another fool or an exception to the rule
You tell me the morning after
Crooked spin can't come to rest
I'm damaged bad at best
She'll decide what she wants
I'll probably be the last to know
No one says it 'til it shows
See how it is, they want you or they don't
Say yes
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