Mmm have done literally nothing but play explore chill read and watch movies since my last paper on wed. Gonna spend tonight reading again and i guess it'll be all out from tomorrow on. Or perhaps i could wait till monday um yea i think i could use one more day. Need to invest in some family time too

Ps i realised out that this is the soundtrack for the twilight prom scene. And marriage scene
Really liking twilight alot more now
yes Iron and wine
bye

Pps..... It's 12.10am and that song is making me wna sob so hard

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Ytd was a really good day.





Caught city of bones today and it was sooOo good despite all the cut scenes. Gotta read the mortal instruments after Os. For now.........movie marathon timezzzzZ good noight


Prelims. Are. Over.

Nobody is going to come and hand you your life. If you are unhappy, nobody else is responsible. At all times, you have two choices: complain or change. And if you continually refuse to choose the latter, you will die just as you are. I don’t think that’s what any of us want, really. We’re always looking for the bigger, better, more miraculous: its ingrained in our humanity and its taught to us by society. Whichever way it comes, its a foundation, and its not worth fighting. Because we are supposed to grow. We are not supposed to be stagnant creatures.

But which direction do we point ourselves in

Feels so good to be able to breathe once more. Even if it's just for the shortest while.


Allow things to take their natural course of action


Today i brought my bio notes all the way to my exam desk and was chillin all and didnt realise it till checking of papers. Can u say nightmare come true. Anw oral was FUCKIG BRILLIANT COS AGEING POPULATION came out but i didnt say as much as i would have liked to and finished BLODDY FAST so maybe its not half as brilliant as i thought it was.... Also went off topic so many times lol Shant burden myself with this and maybe read abit of lit tonight GOD NIGHT


Checked them out last night and realised how much i rly love most of their music.... Plus san cisco is coming...omg srsly upset im not 18 :'(

Just got this damn cool fuckin cool map thats gonna be my new table mat. Can't wait to explore the world. In a few years


Papers have been relatively acceptable thus far but then not having the best feels for lit... And that disturbs me so much. Hoping for the best state of mind for oral tmr too i fucking luuuuuv bio lol bye

When will this end............

Let me go
I don't wanna be your hero
I don't wanna be a big man
Just wanna fight like everyone else

Your masquerade
I don't wanna be a part of your parade
Everyone deserves a chance to
Walk with everyone else

While holding down
A job to keep my girl around
And maybe buy me some new strings
And her and I out on the weekends

And we can whisper things
Secrets from my America dreams
Baby needs some protection
But I'm a kid like everyone else

Need some serious emotional management before i fuck myself up around and upside down. I'll sort this out after prelims. Or after Os
Life fucking waits for nobody

Ps

Currently lying on the floor with disconnected by keane blasting and i feel like im in one of those fucking cool movies where the main character cries after some drama but holds on till the end anw. Fucking love keane

Have fallen back into this realm of perpetual dissatisfaction with my surroundings and people inclusive. All i suppose as a result of stretching myself to my wit's end. Fucking afraid of lashing out at anything or anyone or just speaking my fucking mind i think i might implode from holding it all in



Spent the night over at changi and then the rest of today at nlb fucking worn out rn but GOTTA DO WHAT I HAVE TO DO bye


I suppose shit happens when you try to figure everything out. Time to just let things be and live life


It's a fucking LION and i'm so fucking tired and not feeling so well. Doesn't help to know that i can only sleep properly about 90 days later


Can't stop studying lately seems like i'm on some sick roll. English papers were kinda good right now i juz wanna sleep so bad i wanna drop hcl


Brings back memories of 2012

Kotr cancelled forever (till next year) BEST PASTRIES ever best azrin ever. BISTE 16 FORever


Just because I don't show it doesn't mean that I don't know or see it. Long since decided that it does nothing if not further complicates everything. Long past this stage.

coldplay




the conjuring was......bad. Idk what kind of bad but bad bad many kinds of bad i just know i would never want to watch it again. Enjoyed living the hobo life good life for abit and fell asleep in the sk8er park then went for a swim yup pretty much sums up my day. And yesterday was all study so erm good bye i hate saturdays but hoping tomorrow won't be half as hateful
Ps. The coffee i'm drinking is horrible
Pps HAPPY BIRTHDAY singapore i love you <3


Never thought i could get this tired of human contact.
Not just physically but emotionally and any form of contact in general. I am terribly sick of living like this. All I hope to achieve is some sort of peace, a calm. And for this inner turmoil and constant nagging intolerable anxiety to cease. I cannot please everyone if I am to start trying to please myself.

It's been a good day. Afternoon spent helping cel write quotes though rly pretty sad i'll never get to meet clara :(

Really wanted to spend the night out studying at tamp cb or sth but well didn't work cos i missed my stop and felt too sian for life afterwards

Currently listening to christmas lights and walking home drenched in sweat after what felt like the longest run ever and looking forward to carrot juice maybe coffee while reading ssge. No doubt tonight's gonna be a great night.

Not to mention tmr too; last ndp. Probably the last i'll see of np too and hopefully i'll get to meet my bbies after everything

I don't think any book has made me think or feel as much as this book has. And oddly enough it's made me really sad tonight. Can't think of any better word to describe this feeling. Just pure sadness over the way everything has to be. At the same time I suppose this is the best thing about reading.

The day you realize that your happiness is solely your responsibility is the day you actually can be happy
it's been a damn easy day i could easily get used to living this way forever and that kinda scares me
NOW WATCHING HARRY POTTER and the sorcerer's stone i fucking love hairy potter erm he is my fucking life

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Its like i've lost the ability to feel that simple and very preciously light joy of excitement or even any kind of feeling over anything. Just wanna read my book all by myself for a really long time till i feel like i have recuperated from all there is to recover from. For the time being I am still in the real world and i am also not allowed to feel tired now