26th november








driving up up up up up to mt kinabalu


























our resort surrounded by wisps of annoying ass shit water vapour aka pretty clouds


























sumptuous spread for dinner..... for two... yea i know my stomach can't either. feeling like such a blob right now i suppose i'll have to find a way to roll myself up the actual mountain tomorrow.

good bye for now i guess i'm back to turning my back on civilisation. till tomorrow. or whenever. mom is really getting on my nerves.

27th november
currently sitting on the lower deck of my bunk bed which is surrounded by several other double decked beds in a warm (not literally) little cozy cabin-like room. waiting for my mom to be done bathing. also indescribably sore from my indescribable climbing experience. and there's still another day to go. i feel like i have reached several new and bizzare levels of physical exertion throughout our 5h climb today. standing by my motto of physical exertion being the true satisfaction



























misty fog shit more commonly known as clouds

















bumped into lots of hikers on the way with each meeting ending with a spontaneous hello as we were all out of our damn breaths. albeit that one conversation between two scottish blondes and simon cowell's brazilian doppelganger and my mom and i during our mountain-top buffet dinner (mom is always so jumpy one-track-minded i hate it but no it wouldn't be clever at all to bring it up ha ha ha perks of travelling in pairs......) i think we talked alot about diving and physiotherapy and hiking and our shared nightmarish sentiments about tomorrow's summit cum ferrata climb. holy shit. still any shared experience no matter how nightmarish or tedious is always an unforgettable experience.


















the view and sunset from our hut.
gotta be up at 1.30am for our summit climb. it is 6.09pm right now (yea i had dinner at 5pm record breaker) do the math i gotta crash reaaaaaal soon cos i'm beyond shag

28th november
well hey i'm a day late because i kinda reached my physical limit yesterday. woke up at 1.30am (technically didn't have to wake up because i couldn't fall asleep. at. all. blaming it on the mountain air) to have breakfast which turned out to be my only meal because of my unfortunate bout of altitude sickness. started our climb up to the summit (low's peak) at 2.30am and made it in time to catch the sunrise.








the climb up the freezing sheer grey and steep mountain face itself with a clear view of the starry night was definitely one experience to behold. afterwards we carried out the much dreaded via ferrata and abseiled/climbed our way 400m down from the summit


got back to our hut in time for breakfast #2 which i couldn't down because of said unfortunate altitude sickness. yeah so i had to make the climb all the way back down the mountain on a practically empty stomach (it was almost as awful as it sounds) and i can only be too proud of myself and how the thought of giving up didn't cross my mind once. met the rest of our family back at rasa ria shangri-la fucking resort for a hot fuckin legit shower and laksa for dinner




i cannot even begin to describe how... heavenly... civilisation felt when i got back. that intense rush of relief. it outshines all post-camp comforts. the shangri-la spa experience that followed after was almost as indescribable as the climb itself. okay it was far from that but still felt like fuckin heaven nonetheless. going to be spending the next few days here and i can't imagine that life gets any better

earned my first climbing certificate after conquering the world's 20th most prominent peak. ok i suppose that's it for my mountain climbing experience.








someday baby. someday



life as it is at the moment has been extremely discoloured. lacking of taste. in simpler terms just plain boring. yet at the same time the term 'bored' wouldn't quite completely convey this lack of purpose and lethargy.
it's been awhile since i've had a day like today, or anything close. a day well spent with brilliant company and blessed with the presence of someone whom you have missed so dearly, more now than ever under circumstances (ily brenz you'll always be my talented little girl and i'll always be there supporting you)

flames of my unnecessary anxiety was smothered easily enough by the arrival and mere company of some of my favourite people in the world. then cue the tear-cum-intense-emotions-inducing catching fire, which i am due to sit through a second time this coming sunday. obligatory family movie evenings out. that was followed by jungle book, credits and applause to acsian theatre and vodka and dragonfruits. wrapped up with the typical hanging out and chilling in the mrt with the entire kampong (hariza :( ) waiting out our 20+- stops. the mere idea of late nights out with the people i love is heartwarming, and i couldn't be more excited for tomorrow to come. i could live like this.













last night was a colossal bomb albeit pain-in-the-ass djs and games and gazillion blisters. i may be just slightly hungover right now.
anyway i am looking forward to another long ass day with my fishes because it's been ages. or at least it feels like it




i guess you could say today has been practically non-existent. from waking up at 3.30pm to having a teriyaki chicken sandwich for breakfast cum lunch cum dinner, to lying in bed all day practising some bio mcqs while patching maple and catching up on himym season 8 at the same time, to installing and embarking on my dota life and finally deciding that i needed to get my life back in order because i have a dental appointment tomorrow. it's been years since i last visited a dentist and i'm not quite sure what to expect lol. by getting my life back into order, i meant my body clock specifically amidst all the life stuff piling up and towering over me.


it is now 1.17am and i am wide awake and i am attributing this to my himym marathon late into last night. but i have to try to fall asleep anyway so, good night

Labels: music

i hereby proclaim these feelings legit because it is a year later and i am still hooked as ever E3

Labels: music

i wish i could post mp3 audios on here. though i probably could if i actually made enough of an effort but i'm not going to since i already have chem hahahhaha right. i suppose empathizing with instrumentals is usually quite a phenomenon but i am currently in a trance with goosebumps all over while listening to science and religion - hans zimmer and joshua bell, i suppose one of the more popular soundtracks of angels & demons. there was just something i really hated about that movie. then again i never really understood it. probably due to my being relatively younger and lacking appreciation. yeah i also recall it being bloody fucking frightening all over the huge ass cinema screen

the song just ended but i think this next one is still zimmer's. his inception soundtracks are indubitably and hands down his best yet. what a legend ily bye



i feel as though it's been ages since i've written anything in here. or done anything besides maple for 12 hours a day with wl and charlie for that matter. also feeling like an absolutely changed person because i'm listening to royals while typing this right now

trying my best not to let the euphoria of the idea that i never have to touch chinese again sink in, because it is highly possible that that may not be the case after my abysmal attempt earlier this week. also trying not to dwell on the latter. basically just trying to lock chinese right out of my happy bubble and throwing that ugly ass key somewhere into the pacific ocean.

i may have mentioned something about my overpowering maple fetish in some earlier post but i'm going to bring this up again because i cannot stop playing. i legitimately feel as though i am 9 and the happiest kid again and this is besides the fact that the admin have revamped it so much i barely recognise any vestige of what used to be my life lol no hate

had to pause my train of thoughts for awhile there because i had to leave for dinner. now i don't feel very well because i think somewhere right before i left i subconsciously decided to let myself get thoroughly affected and overly sensitive about existential family issues… and then after dinner i subconsciously decided to start crying a lot and i suppose that was what got me feeling slightly queasy. i'm sure i just have to allow myself to feel this way for awhile before i can resurface and before it all goes away.

ok i'm sorry i've lost all mood to talk about my life and right now i'm going to watch some of the mentalist

good bye









found a bunch of Ultimate Study Playlists on 8tracks and discovered as good as all of my favourite soundtracks in them. @TheGirlNamedJedrzejko hats off to you my queen

i am absolutely hooked and it is taking me half my self control to not give in to the urge to comply to my feelings and dive into a full on movie marathon. 10/10 would not recommend

other half of my self control is very much occupied barricading some real intense maplestory feels. i'm not even going to go into that now because higher chinese.

TILL THEN FUCKERS hashtag gamer gurl

tonight i had the best night i've had in a long while, possibly over a year. the entire day was pretty darn magical to be honest. it was almost as though the meadow was a whole other world we were brought to live in and all the people around me were so intriguing. indie community. also had fucking brilliant cookies wedged with fucking solid ice-cream and wasted 35 bucks on a wild nothing tee because i did not realise there was a camp symmetry tee and then aliah and friend got fucking good chicken and we all got free tom yam lays potato chips oh yea hariza and i also got 3 bottles of mineral water for 10 bucks can you say rip off. well that pretty much sums up the lepak of today and all that being said, tonight still indubitably was a whole new level. to be standing there amidst hot, wet bodies dense with the putrid stench of fish rotting in the waterlogged soil, with secondhand cigar smoke wafting through the crowd, screaming and dancing to sets by bands i found myself anticipating and looking forward to almost the entire day and just soaking up the fiery of their passion. i cannot sum up with words the intensity of this feeling. it is infinite. yeah i said it no hard hipster cliché feelings there.





camp symmetry sure lived up to its camp title noticing how towards the end hariza and i felt as though we were at ubin or something having roll call but nonetheless it's been an insanely good night


ps. it is now 2.51am and i just spent the past 45mins or so trying to put up today's videos and pictures via my laptop which clearly hasn't worked out for the best. i shall just use my phone