2H.
No longer 1H but 2H, no more awkwardness but double madness on the first day.
Cross country was crazy too hahaha polaroid with edwina, and i got 21st and remembered being so asdfghj ONE MORE POSITION!!!!! Remembered going for frolicks with edwina amanda mel and tricia afterwards and gaying there. Really really gonna miss you guys.
And all those fitness corner suntanning times with anais. Just lying there and sleeping and talking and playing bejewelled, sometimes with tricia.
And all those retarded failed group works meant alot too man. Alyson and abigail too!!! Can't imagine having different partners and going to bugis for art and ended up shopping hahah.
And home econs ;( when I found those maggots in the blender and screamed and ran to hide at the back of the kitchen. And all those ants and that lizard in the oven. Dnt and art too ahhh ms chen and her 'okay's and her stupid contact lenses and us calling her vampire. So much..........,,,... And chasing jaya away!!! We almost collaborated with mr sng to write a complaint letter to the school haha her freaking biasedness against anais and I. only two Cs in class and 'anita you should really consider going for counselling' hahahahahahahahahahahahaha bitch, really. And mrs foo!!!!!!! Running away from her every morning, probably to be continued next year anyway. And mdm goh and mr leng confiscating my skirt! And people I havent met bitching about me L O L. Leng calling us 'retarded normal tech kids' and giving us disgusting looks. And then mtp!!! Leng made me cry and half of 2H was comforting me ultimate rebellion!! Then there was sports day hahah WE GOT 3RD FOR 10x80!!!!! Aww yeah and that crazy moment when 2C beat 2S hahahehe and I ran 1.5 and 3k and 800m killed me. And then there was teachers day. Okay i doubt i'm going in order but whatever man ok we got different angry birds for everyone hahahaha running around school together with the bag like a tata claus and delivering them
to teachers and mr tay wanting to give it to his son, and taking pics with them! Mdm goh being a cute annoying person! Mr sng being a sexy jerk! Mr leng being sucha leng and the rest being cool.
Sitting at they track and taking paparazzi shots of sng running and playing soccer heh heh heh. Yup and being gay again in the hall with the gang sigh...
All those jogging sessions when (almost) everyone refused to cheer!!!! Or jog in 2 rows!! And tricia would scream her head off! And anais and I being the cheer reps hahahaha. That moment when anais and I didnt hand up our dnt files and both got like 25% overall.
And I screwed up so badly and ended up in the bottom 10. of the level. And all those study dates with ed mel and manny after school 2 weeks before eoys hahah which ended up in table soccer!!! Jumping up and down and yelling like mad. And beibei tricia and sam forever quarreling with mr tay in class, and him making us write letters if we dont do ace learning. And my twice confiscated phone!!! Or thrice i forgot! And mr clarke and awkward miss yap. Marina barrage!!! Edwina spread the crying disease cuz it was the last week of us... Sigh. Class kite!! Class flag!! Wanlin is the freaking bomb. Got sun tanned at the barrage and failed picnic!! Hahah and I managed to fly the kite after sprinting like 1000000m. And pics and so thirsty i bought like 3 bottles of vitamin water and couldnt finish it. Sitting in a circle and being gay AGAIN.
Last day of school, all half dead and sobbing at nothing and letter-passing everywhere. Staying up the previous night chionging every last thought in everyone's letters. Hugs and tears everywhere and finally got my polaroid with sng heh heh again, from edwina's camera. Thanks baby! Sigh really really gonna miss everybody. hellllll amanda and rachieee you two gaybirds. :'( Cant imagine another monitress!!!!! And rachel being such a sweetheart in the library when i was sad hahah. And shannon and jessie and omg SO MUCH!!!!! ESTHER LEE!!!!!!! My table partner :'( I don't want to move on. Okay..... I think that's enough.


Athena.
I love each and everyone of you because we would not be us if it werent for anyone. and we still have another year and a half. We must treasure all this, all right? No more cliques no more competitiveness because its always all for one, one for all. Be louder!!!! More enthu!!!! Put in 999%!!!! ACE EVERY PARADE BECAUSE WE KNOW WE CAN DO IT!!!! And they know we can too!!! <3 Shall save all the extra mushiness for 2 years later. CANNOT IMAGINE.

So...... this year sucked alot. I don't see how my life has improve at a l l. Despite all the new friendships, and fun gay laughter and amazing tablepartners classmates and squadmates. Deproved so much, lost so many friends, can't get over people, more family conflicts, nobody is there. Can only hope for the better from tomorrow onwards.

New year's resolution:
-Be a responsible kid.
-No more Cs or B4s.
-Really really study when I can because next year's gonna be busy hell.
-Trust my friends.
-Chase mr john a w a y.







Hoooooo i'm back. Chiangmai was...... cold spicy and fun and i miss cccccc and peeeople. :'( today shall be dedicated pianoing and movie marathoning and sleeping. Is it too much to just want to be happy.







Got sunburnt from yesterday's training and we broke our record wheep wheep 8min 15s and team lunch was the bomb i have burst blood vessels from all those slaps.
Dreamt of her after everything yesterday. It was so sick and i woke up stressed out like hell.

Squad outing was the bomb! met everyone minus jen and bused to ecp haaha picniced at the shelter and jen finally came lika man with the drinks hiphiphooray. Beached and made Athena's naked sand boyfriend and had a fake csi scene STAY TUNED FOR EPISODE 2. Went cycling (wanlin = officially cycle-able bitches!!!!) and so many injured people sobs half-managed to teach chels to cycle then fun bus ride again and went home + got coke with jen and had an awkward bus rush while splitting the value pack heeeeeeheeee its delivery time bye brozz










Nothing much to blog about rly EVERYDAY IS THE THE SAME oh thanks lovely esther for the 2 postcards to athena :')

Yesterday!
Muddy training, raining all day, mud soaked bathed in school and went to study with ali chels jess at starbucks and went home.

Todayay text and texted and smsed and slept alot and spent hours downloading mission impossibleSSS and even more hours rewatching everything oh and received esther's postcards haha mum was spazzing over the 'i erect you erect we erect yeah!' that gaybird didnt write my name on the card!!!! haha okay good night

ps. do your work honey!!!! sex thinking can come later ;)

pps. cutting me out like this wont solve anything. but then again you don't care.

Just another night, I'll just curl up and turn Coldplay on, close my eyes and pretend that its just like the movies and I'll meet a real person someday who'll actually make things better. Maybe someday I'll just move to Paris/Rome/Venice and really just start over. Maybe even meet Tom Cruise. Maybe be an Olympic winner. Maybe qualify as a spy agent. Maybe join the force. Maybe become a richass lawyer and drive a lamborghini. Maybe.

I hate it. I hate it that you take my feelings with a pinch of salt. I need you.




Wanlin baby be happy because you look like a lizard when you're sad, an ugly one.
















Love them all to bits man. Training and talking and studying and playing. Sometimes you guys make me so sad but really the happiness is worth 5000 times overthinking.
I want to go back to before.






Everytime I try to fly, I fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams, I see your face, you're haunting me, I guess I need you baby.












Had piano @ 9.30!!! Got starbucks and then headed to school to study with wl chels and jen oh fml half my venti caramel frap had to spill and soak the fuck outta my bag and pencilcase and pens and book and homeworksssss and file yup spent 20 mins cleaning the shit up. finally got wanlin's letter!!!! yay ::::) had macs hahahahah eesh flabby oh bought my kid animal plasters heheheheehhe and gave them out to the 3 baby kiddo squaddies!!! Back to school and finished up my sit. writing + 1/4 of my cheena compo haha not to mention awkwardest laughter at the awkwardest moments plus c o l d p l a y. then went running with chels and jen. 2.4k in 11m 51s then byed and went to sleep by the pond hehehe oh mum knocked into this richass dude's mercedes this morning a m a z i n g but its his fault so yup went to eastpoint then home @ 6!!

ps. happy day.
pps. thanks natalie for the prezzies! :::)







Didnt manage to blog about yesterday cuz well..... i fell asleep.
Okay cc was fun!!! so many absentees but yup and pt was best hehe plankssss. And the She was there the whole time, gonna be seeing her almost everyday s h i o k. yay go T-Rex!!!!! Oh yeah new injury = rope burn and i burst my blood blister all over my face/hair last week hiphiphooraay i want a new one. Celebrated 2 bdays after training + flour water bath. happy belated bday chelsea baby ;) and yup nex for lunch with part athena and then went home with jen. A c h i n g all over sigh forgot what i did when i got home but whatever bye bye oh ya slept for 12 hours!!! and i plan to stay home today happy- plan day. + running + swimming. My first completely free day this holiday. what is a break.

ps. happy shopping week: 2 pairs of shoes + 2 bags + yay stuff!!

pps. thank you honey for being such a sweetie




Helllllo met jen at simei @ 11+ and met rachel and melly at paya lebar and got a freakin heart attack at melissa's shakespeare outfit lol srsly bro. k reached kallang leisure park and got tix for breaking dawn and whoooop arcade timeeeee. Lmfao bishybashy hahahaha and mario kart!!!! and hockey and stealing bballs. Yup sneaked kfc into the cinema and breaking dawn was t r a u m a t i z i n g god damn it. Talk about a bad mixture of blood and sex k ice skating after that was da bomb srsly never expected more than hanging onto the railing for 2h. oh met renee and siyi there hahaha cant decide whether they helped or annoyed me more omg stop pussssshing meeee but yay finally learnt to skate. Or more like stumble-glide-stop-stumble-glide-fall haaaahaha fell 4x and this hot dude helped me out hehahohi. So many little kiddos flying about sigh depressing or pathetic. okkkkk and the drinks there are cool!!!!! blabbbby ok left at like 7+ oh had fried rice for dinner and i'm aching my butts off sigh.

Ps. You complicate your own life. Stupid enough to not realise it or shallow enough to leave things as they are.







Met jen at serangoon cuz we were ON TIME and esther + jaslyn were... 20 mins late? Yup ok hunted all over nex and decided on a $*** summer berry cheesecake for seeesee hehehe since the tangyuan stall only opened at 10.30am hmph oh yeah I climbed up a down-escalator oh yeah baby. so bused to chelsea's house and gave her a not surprising bday surprise yayyyy though poor gal's bday is in 4 days. Yeeess ok had foods and then kiddo-ed at the playground for awhile before going to the library then having lunch @ pastamania and esther left. studied at rockery and passed anisha my science ws wooohoo why is it everytime we try to study at rockery we'll end up laughing our abs off???? and end up freezing to death and escaping to the toilet eeesh k went home with jen and met Tricia on the mrt!!! Awkwardness yup then walked home and emoed alot and now i just need my sleep sigh bye bye

close your eyes!!!


Today was good wheep and i'm typing all this out with my right thumb sigh my life.

Cc test in the morning was fun minus smashing my left thumb. Two blood blister!!!! Pitched 3.... or 4 tents and wheep good timings. Lunch with part athena @ pp kfc/macs! got chased out of kfc cuz we were eating macs so we camped at the pp cc bball court heh heh napped with jaslyn then went to climb the spider web woohoo pictures!!! So I dont have a fear of heights..... just a super fulucky sense of balance sigh k it was fun fun fun then had ice cream and went to nex for comebuy with jas and went home holding my dowel pole + a balakued finger. Had a super hard time bathing argh never realised how important a thumb can be man ;____; ooooh even more exciting day tomorrow okay good night i just wanna crashhahahhh

ps. you guys give me headaches sometimes.

pps. I named my blood blister tom!!!!!