FROM MY BABY WEENA!!!!!





Hiiiiiiiiii as of right now I officially can NOT walk anymore yipiyayzers. Met amandy edwiny melly abby anny at vivo and took the monorail to sentosaaaa woooohoo USS was the shit man! Had more than 5 battlestargasms hehehehehahHa okay basically I think we took almost every awesome right and it was awesomistically gasmistic okay and we took like almost 20 polaroids omg i wont even start about the pictures. oh yeah i bought a $15.80 amazingtastic slosh in a potion bottle and then lost my straw sobsssss. went to ride the battlestar like 4 more times and then abby and eddy ordered oversized food with mama anita's money okay i swear the pizza was the mouthgasm k and i overcheesed it. So at like 7pm abby left and we played truth or dare. the questions are a little too censored so yippers!!!!!!!!!! dirty freakozoids and then it was HALLOWEEN HORROR NIGHT yay it was super scary at first and this retard zombie instructed me to pose ok lolssss and we were raping and camwhoring with them heeeheees i am so jellybeany tired rn i CANNOT WALK. oh yah so we left at like 10.30 and mama had a hard time sending sherry and melly back sorry guys ::::::::) ok i just wanna watch eat pray love and maybe sleep forever bye :* best day ever. I love you guys.

ps. 2H is 4eva.




I am so sorry. After one night and two whole hours of you screaming and shouting have I finally realised how much this has affected and hurt you too. After all this while its been my issue, my problem, and not yours. It wasn't your trust in question, it was always mine. My distrust in you. After all this while you've given me completely unconditional trust and love despite my constant disappointments, distrust, bullshit, disappointments, lies, and disappointments. I am so sorry. Everything I asked for, I got. Yet I keep pushing the blame back onto you. I am shameless. Even after doing so badly, coming home late everyday its getting mundane, you still keep the faith and trust. I don't deserve any of this. Right now I just wish so hard that you've been secretly following me on twitter or trying to understand my life so that it won't be as hard on you. I am not completely heartless, I do know how much of a bitchy excuse of a daughter I've been. That was so overwhelming and right now I am so lightheaded. I'm so sorry. You may have hit or slapped me more than a few times but the damage and hurt I've inflicted on everybody here is completely irreversible. I am so sorry.

All this while, I've been blaming myself alot more than I should, but even so its all over the wrong reasons. Yeah, I am lazy and I can't even bring myself to look for the motivation to do well so how on earth can I expect others to help me. I take things for granted. I have always had issues on loneliness. That is the one thing that would probably hurt as bad as stabbing me with 10 basilisk fangs and suffocating me with zebra pee. I can't even bear to watch I Am Legend because it basically depicts my worst fear. I have trust issues too. I don't trust anybody that can speak. Not even my best friend. Don't even have to ask why I'm lonely. I repel people because somehow I'm not as welcoming, friendly or invitingly cheerful as others. Maybe a real friend wouldn't care. But I wouldn't know, would I. I've always wanted someone to understand me. I've always wanted to trust someone with my everything. But then again I've had too much experience with people just making up their minds out of the blue to leave. And there I stand, with nothing left. All I really want is one friend who would treasure our friendship more than their ego. That would initiate something for once rather than just take me for granted all the damn time. That would spare a thought about how I'd feel about whatever they're doing. That would actually care less than half as much my mum does. That would actually be there for me and not just say that. I don't ask for them to be perfect. All I want right now is for someone to take their time and effort to actually try and know me. I sound like such a self centered bitch. Okay I don't even deserve this. I don't even deserve this phone I'm typing on right now. I've been pushing you away these months and as far as I'm concerned, none of you have done a thing to pull me back. In the end I'm the one that realises I can't live anymore and snap and force you back in. I know I'm not worth it. I'm not abnormally smart, pretty, funny, rich or cool enough for you guys. One of them has gone far beyond reach and I have no damn idea how to pull them back right now. I doubt you even think about me a quarter of how much I still do. Everyday. I've inflicted too much hurt and damage and I'm aware its irreversible. But I'm not perfect, right? I'm jealous, I'm lonely, I'm insecure, I get hurt easily, I'm possessive. I can't see the bright side anymore. Its like I'm drowning minus that last glimpse of light. Through these past 6 months I've been thinking that I'm on the way down when in fact I'm simply going through the biggest lesson I've had learnt all my life. I need to trust. And more than anything, I need to know how to trust. I need someone to trust. What is trust anyway. I can go on till tomorrow.

Even after reading all this, you'd probably still see me as pathetic. Funny as it seems, I don't blame you.







Halo eblipody!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My legs are the shit and my ass is the pee omg I actually fell down stairs yesterday cuz I could no longer walk asdfghjkl no joke

Today was amazing <<<333 Woke up and immediately typed out two of my dreams hahahahaha i should keep up with this habit man my dreams are the stupidest things ever. Not to mention i woke up with this crazy craving for a polaroid sobssss. Met the gang edwina mel amanda wl sheriann rachel at eastpoint and had froyo!! AND WE SAW XIAXUE WITH HER HUSBAND oh paparazzi mode was soooo on. went over to Jen's for deepavali yay!! Her house is too huge sobsss did everything ;;;) under the sky and scandalled around and had awesome food for lunch. Watched cheena dramas too hahaha同心圆!!! Had an awesome long heartyyyy talk with the amazing people and I actually started crying. I can't imagine being in a class without you guys. Sigh talked and took pictures and left and it started raining o yayyyyy. Got stuff for tomorrow's picnic @ marina barrage!! Sigh gonna go on writing cards till i fall asleep bye lovers and bitches.

I want my house to look like that.


Woke up at about 10am and went over to dharnia's with nabila and had lunch yippee watched Man On Fire. Bloody sick show asdfghjkl though naboobs and I were sleeping halfway through how romantic. Naboobs left early and dani and I were doing stuff not to be proud of not that we are unproud of it ok bye!!!! dead tired

Violation feels good


Hiiiiii yesterday was so fun I need to blog about whatever I can still recall of it hahaha. It was a happy day.
Had project runway and we were so awesome!!!! 2H got runner up but whatever I am so happy. Edina totally looked like ms lizah hahahahaha oh speaking of teachers the bestestcoolestfantabombasticest mr sng is leaving my side i spent 30 full mins crying my heart out for him IT FELT LIKE A PART OF ME DIED MAN. ok the rest of ne carnival was fun i guess. Had pizzahut with dear dharnia and then window shopped for 4eva + i extended my wishlist woohoo shall post it when my birthday's coming ohhhhhyesss. Oh and I found all my guide cookies.




Hi beautiful this is the first time in months I'm actually blogging from my laptop. First time in days i've gone online actually AND I can still type like a g6 asdfghjkl less than 2 weeks left to pouring everything out. eeeeeeeeeeeeeer............... ohya i'm not exactly looking forward to coals right now either b u t whatever i wont throw this opportunity away because of................... aaaanyway tbh I never really expected this blog to last this long hah i was meaning to give up after a few months but ohhhhhhh k

School today was awesome had tchoukball for the first half and it was a w e s o m e 3 yays for happy bala + super bala. Cyber wellness was also better than expected I love adam khoo. after school had a brief meeting then went on a date with dear sharanya oh and i totally drop-splat my half-filled cup of sogurt and the lady was so nice she didnt charge me after that hoboed around + shopped and then had pastamania at..... 4+ ok. margarita pizza was good.... yes..... okay. next stop: Acting classes bitch we will make it!!!!!!11 ok bye.




Hi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok today was a happy happy sad day. I don't know what to make out of my moodswings any longer sooo i'm just going with the floooow and happy healthy distractions ::::) I do have awesome friends come to think of it but awesome or not we are all fake and fake or not its a matter of how good we are at being fake because i xantlclzsiapajhzhxzk k i dont trust people. They can talk.

huge load of crap. woke up at 10 or 11 today then ran and had starbucks and met jenny at simei then headed to plaza sing with mellers rachers amanders edwinners after hoboing around for 30mins at dhoby ghaut waiting for the queenies. you need a high intelligence level to make sense out of what I type man oh yah bought tix for Johnny english then wasted a whole load of time talking about nothing ::::::::) had macs for lunch oh Johnny English was awesome shit and good endings are really 1 in a 100000. spent like 1h at paper market. I AM GOING TO DO SOMETHING FOR EVERYONE ;___; Okaaay had dinner with mel and rach @ Hot Tomato oh and there were hot aussie performers at USS sitting next to us so i snapped a few paparazzi shots k........ went home with rachel and had blendit.
So bloody tired right now and my phone just wont bloody sync I am annoyed byeeee




Yesterday's lit was.... i don't even know I just know that i'm either getting an A1 or C5. Science hahahahahahHhHhA don't even mention it. Went home and instead of math watched Back Up Plan and it was the awesomest hilariousest shit ever I dont even regret not studying for math.

Lost about 20 marks in total but whatever!! Life is good and i am busy trying to be happy again. Meant to have a HIMYM marathon today with the boobers but my bloody laptop had to screw up watched Dream House with dani and naboobs thinking it was some hapi fairytale shit which turned out to be a thriller horror shit movie halfway through. I have horrible friends. shopped yay went back at about 6 and headed to town for Marche dinner was awesome yippeeyayzers gonna have my own himym marathon rn baiiiiiiiiiz




i'm pretty much trying my best to blog about everyday since I dont have a diary of any sort..... besides twitter.

This morning was really sucky minus the fact that i revised geog otw to hell. played captain's ball for pe oh my god i miss netball so much :::::( After school had lunch and then studied with the boobieliciouslies and jesserz then jen joined us after remedial ended and then left at about 5. had an interesting journey to simei with the sweetie rachie and the vibrating heat-radiating jen and that caucasian guy with sexy piercings.

had sushi tei for dinner and I just fell asleep and totally rolled off the couch while doing geog halfway really i give up k back to mugging i miss mummy sob

What if you should decide that you don't want me there at your side.
I love The Script. I love The Fray. I love Coldplay.







today was rather ok school was stupid and we're getting free face products cuz some pretty girl came to give a talk. signed up for barcelona then met mamas and got children day gifts :::::') i miss them so much then had blendIt and then studied at starbucks with iffah till about 6 k i'm done blogging and gna do math till i want to sleep bye byes

ps. kill me

pps. I WANT MY IPHONE 5 NOT A FUCKING 4S

ppps. my fav L.A cuzzie's leaving: life is gonna suck even more



This is a crazy world
These can be lonely times
It's hard to know who's on your side
Most of the time

Who can you really trust
Who do you really know
Is there anybody out there
Who can make you feel less alone
Some times you just can't make it on your own

If you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, hmmm

If you have broken dreams
Just lay them all on me
I'll be the one who understands
So take my hand

If you reach emptyness

You know I'll do my best
To fill you up with all the love
That I can show someone
I promise you you'll never walk alone

Well if you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, oooo

Everybody needs somebody who
keep a heart and soul in two

Well if you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, Here I am
i have this syndrome whereby i have to post a picture everyday or i'll throw tantrums


Came to school extra early yesterday and got pretty children day pressies from amazing people like awwwwwies. Eng just had to spoil the bubble fun by screaming and producing soundwaves and popping all the bubbles. k oh yeah i had nice naps on esther's lap today sigh love my tablepartner. (brush your teeth) oh ya my rubber band snapped right when i changed my mind on my french braid so i had to spend the day with a fucking saggy ponyass on my head

after school had lunch with melly rachel and jessie then stayed back to painty painty stuffs with the nanas and talky talky eaty. Photocopied 1 set of science & math past year papers with jen and shaoz cuz i'm a hordworking bastard like that then went back with wanlin and had a nice talk ^^^. had dinner at some coolshit malayan cafe which had conrad-like prawn noodles ::::::::) oh and got new specs too. How do i manage to type out so much about my mundane day i swear someday i'm gonna die of omonobovocoxoxozophobia.