key trait to be adopted then mastered: detachment
no matter, i have turned into a real bitch with a shit personality.
still suffering from mild the 1975 pcd. sort of.
at least i can't get them out of my head.
looking forward to my equinox comeback this coming weekend. sort of.

i believe that if it were to hit me now, it would hit the hardest for all the false alarms and months of quiet in my head. i wouldn't get back up. if it were to hit right now as hard as before, that is. i would only be reiterating the fact that things never actually get better once they get worse. it's logic really, the same as that behind how we can never erase something, an idea, from our minds upon its entering our heads.