For the past 2 years or so, I watched as past batches blew bubbles or their noses in flurries of laughter and liberty. I'm graduating from secondary school in two days, and despite having been looking forward to this day for awhile now, at the moment everything has an air of surreality to it. There are so many things I wish I could do before Saturday morning, but time is running out; 18 days to Os. I would love to write to everyone who has left a mark one way or another on my life- like legitimate heartfelt pages-long letters as a form of disclosure, or even closure for some. I also want to spend a full day sitting down by myself and reflecting on the past 4 years. Remorse, regret, reminisce. I want to indulge in and be completely overwhelmed by the nostalgia of all that has come and gone. Perhaps all of that can wait a month or two. So many phases I have found myself advancing through in this life here in cedar. I wouldn't, couldn't, have possibly wished for things to have turned out otherwise. I may not know where I am right now, but I do see where I want to be, and I genuinely hope that I will see myself to the end.
I think this is the part where I upload a really meaningful song preferably See you soon by coldplay but blogspot refuses to cooperate so I will have to settle for pondering silence. Time to just fuck Os for now  (to the best of my efforts) and live the next two days to their fullest. Also just realised that this is my 500th post now how's that for meaningful.