At this rate i doubt i can ever find it in me to talk to you or even trust you the way i used to, effortlessly, and it overcomes me in a way i don't want it to. We used to be there for each other every other day but i suppose things changed and we discovered new things we want in our separate lives.

Perhaps i'm being selfish or oversensitive or just paranoid but one thing for sure, this feels like some kind of sick deja vu (dating back to earlier in the year) and i don't feel good. I don't feel good at all, and i want to shake this feeling off while i can.