I know i need to put my life back together but this feels so good i don't even want to anymore. It's been beyond imaginable, the way i've been living, i feel so different and somewhat the same way i used to feel years back. Like maybe 5/6 years or so ago. It's scary because it confuses me and i just feel like i change much too often. But i like it this way. I feel much lighter yet at the same time something keeps haunting me. This change has led to me subconsciously letting go of some things. Many things, that i had been drawing into my life lately. I did not understand what i was doing back then and i still don't. Maybe it was the result of what happened to me last year. Reflecting in my means of coping with myself throughout this current duration. Not so current anymore to be honest, seeing how i've changed and had my mindset hardened and polished over the past week.

I am over this life. I have come to the conclusion that it will never be worth it, and i am past putting myself, and the people who care, through this only to discover what i already know

Lol that whole lump of deep thought was the result of me sidetracking uh ya i wanted to put my life back together right??? Been spending almost every night watching superheroes be all magic and then crying over them like the fuckTurd i am lol Ya i have to put my life back together..... Because right now all i can think of is um amath...and how im probably gonna watcj xmen tmr night LOL fuck me over

Anw This is a fucking long post im typing out on my phone because i just finished rewatching the Dark knight rises and i cannot sleep because i want to cry because batman because.....christian bale

Oh i was also rly productive today i think cos i did more amath Ha ha ha and finally caught WWZ FUCKING THRILLER heart-stopping shit everybody must go watch it ok


Bye