I'm aware how selfish it is of me to be behaving this way but it really makes my head hurt so much. And makes my blood pump so much faster. Realised that within the span of 5 minutes this morning; thought I'd explode when I saw her standing there, waiting.
At the same time I am trying to convince myself that this anger will get me nowhere, and that it's time to let go of all my grudges. I have enough to cope with as it is, and I definitely don't want to hurt anybody just because I refuse to handle something that should be that insignificant to me. I have enough to cope with as it is without this added headache, so I may as well get rid of it and stop beating myself up.




Sigh there's just so much that I need to let out. Guess that's how this works anyway. Anyway, talking to her no longer feels the same. She seems so... distant. Disengaged. It makes me so sad, because I really should have known better than to invest such faith into something as shallow as you seem to be making it out to be. Did something go wrong somewhere? If yes, I wonder what did. Perhaps it was like this from the start, and I was simply too afraid to believe otherwise. Please feel better.
















Got to bump into wei ern and new friend too. Rainy day not so rainy afterall.




I am sleepy and I feel like I should cry because i find myself getting so distracted by shit completely unworthy of. Never mind