I am tired of being misunderstood, or manipulated by someone who hates me as irrationally as she does. I don't understand it and I'm not even overthinking. I honestly never thought myself a detestable person, let alone a liar (at least not the way she put it). The real breaking part of that session was that small act of kindness and understanding in the midst of all that overwhelming anger and hate. The thought of it still brings me to tears and I hate feeling that way more than anything. I just hate crying infront of people.


Thank you athena for the cake (advanced or not) <3 there is green on it and that's all that matters but really it meant alot to me





The after-part of today completely made up for the shit lunch I never had. Catching up session with t and a, then finally meeting and clearing things up with someone who possibly still means a good part of the world to me. I feel so light and happy, finally getting stuff out of the way. I've missed you so much ditz, I love you.


Hate and whatnot aside, today was by far one of the best days of 2013 yet. What I'd give for things to be so simple, and for everyone I care about to be open-minded enough to see all for what they are, unblemished.

Ps. Thanks everyone who tried to make my day better in one way or another <3