You are so self-centred and just so selfish I can't believe I ever had that much to do with you. I am typing this post against my better judgement, firstly because you are merely an impactful part of the past; my past. And also because I shouldn't be aggravating this issue any further. Correct me if I'm wrong, but your inflated ego clearly hasn't allowed you to care about anyone aside from yourself. Not even those whom you claim to have meant so much to you. Not her. Not even me, through those bloody long months. It has always been about you, your public image, and your life, right from the start. So many times I needed you because of everything I'd lost. Perhaps I was just stupid enough to have given up that much for something we both knew wouldn't last.


You used to make me feel so... Light and different; right now I just feel like stabbing my own head and getting rid of this headache I didn't use to have. I don't see what good could come of another session together.



Facing so much difficulty trying to express this lump of thoughts and things that I have been feeling lately.... I think I really have to read soon. Haven't been feeling much like a lit student this year.




Past aside, today was... Hmm. I wouldn't label it as a bad day because there are so many factors to take into account. And so many contributing reasons. This week in general was bound to be a gloomy one. Thankful for this deary




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Pps. Hoping for the best out of tomorrow.
Ppps. Day 2............