There's just something about this picture. The natural beauty of it.




Spent a good lot of time reflecting and thinking about the way people have been. Broke down once on the bus and boy it really sucked because I really didn't want to make the woman next to me feel half as awkward and miserable as i was..... the second time was real horrid too. I was walking in the tunnel and nearly walked straight into a cyclist... who nearly toppled over onto the road and gave me a damn shock of my life. I was just thinking about the people who've been taking me for granted and then I remembered something alicia told me and I got confused. So so confused about...... I didn't know what to do and it seriously took me so much self control to not collapse and just cry right there. Because so awkward.... I need a man sized crib




Just.... Do whatever you want ok. All I'm asking of whatever's left of this friendship is for you to not do it in my face. This really isn't worth it. You take alot for granted, and I'm sure you're only there because this time, you've been openly invited by her. Rather than pushed away like you've been, from the rest. Don't cry. Don't cut yourself. Don't feel a thing. I'm pretty sure you can do without me and I just hope you're damn happy, because you really couldn't have chosen fucking better.




I'm not usually one to feel let alone cry this much for people who don't actually give a shit. Probably because I have this tendency to think the worst of everyone I meet, before i actually get to know them. It works because I seldom get disappointed and I hardly ever get hurt. It must be terribly boring though, being a fragile person. You never find the guts to actually get to know people, with hopes that you might find something unexpected. Well i'm not fragile. I just like to think of myself as cautious, and that I like to learn from my mistakes.




At the start of this year I promised myself that I'd be true to myself, and no way am I going back on that promise now. Not for something like this. Like I said it isn't worth it. It took me this much to get myself back in this shell and I'm not about to lose me again.



Absolutely in love with auroras and beautiful photographs of nature. I miss new zealand. I fucking miss travelling.