It would be nice to have someone close enough to at least understand the kind of dilemma I'm in right now. Someone like a sibling. I don't know. I just feel so bloody alone. I have no home, not in the literal sense of the word, but I no longer feel at home anywhere. I'm crying so much now after telling him how fucking much I hated him and his sarcasm, and exclaiming my own disbelief at every damn thing. I feel like a horrible person for even harbouring such thoughts but... I secretly wish they'd get through with a divorce already. So tired of you and your superiority. Stop hurting her man fuck it stop lying to me. Fuck you


Today was a horrible day, placed next in comparison to the other days of the week. She changed there and then and I just really didn't like it. What can she possibly hope to get out of behaving that way now? I love her. She means so much to me but this has been killing me inside for quite awhile now. I know why she behaves that way but. It's too late. A year has passed and gone. I just wish you'd care more because the things you do, consciously or not, actually hurt the shit out of others.


This picture is so lovely (new zealand) well sigh I need some recovery time... Very much alone

Ps. It's been awhile since I last had a night like this. Praying to no god it all won't come rushing back this time

Pps. Even she cant take my mind off tonight