I feel like i've let her down, unconsciously. I guess I really didn't realise what I was doing this whole time. I thought I was helping someone.... Rather than leading another to her (yet to be known) downfall


On a side note, forcing smiles to last an entire day has got to be one of the hardest things ever. I don't have a choice now do I... One bout of depression only leads to another. I seriously beat myself at this losing game.


Sng jian ming

Ps. So fucking drained....