Crying so fucking much my head hurts. I am trying, not for you or anyone else but because I want it so badly for myself. I don't want this. I don't want your 'help', because it isn't helping me. You don't want to listen, and you say all that because you don't understand. Because I fail to make myself coherent, heard. You are stressing me out more than anything else is.

I will make it.