What the fuck was i playing at? I am so mad at myself it hurts... I ruined the entire day for myself.


I promised myself I would never let myself do what I did back then but fuck i messed up. This is not what you deserve from anyone, especially not from somebody like me... I'm just at such a loss right now and I am so tired of crying over the stupidest things because I am supposed to be past that. Too much has been happening these two days but I can't let myself be all overwhelmed just like that.


For god's sake, the year has barely started. And I am ever thankful for my baby wanlin.