This is getting out of hand. I still remember the first time I cared. We were barely sec 2. Perhaps it was a chain of events following that which eventually led to the build up of this colossal mess. I am so sorry to have ever gotten you into this blackhole you seem to find yourself in. I refuse to let this go on, I should have put a solid foot down long ago, but I was afraid. I still am. I am afraid of what you might do to yourself, how much hurt you are willing to inflict upon yourself for... This.

I am terrible for you. I wouldn't even dare describe myself as a drug because I am far more hideous than that. I destroy you, and I beg for you to accept this form of help; the only kind which I am resorting to forcing upon you. I am so sorry. There is too much to be genuinely apologetic for.
Please let yourself be left alone, it's something you must do.