It really feels like I'm losing it this time. Just so so so exhausted and I'm breaking down. I no longer have anyone to turn to and i just can't seem to believe that I don't need anyone. I don't know why you have to do this and it hurts like hell, what the fuck happened to being my 'best friend' two years back. I needed you terribly the past two years but yeah you had it all, you've always had.

I just want all of this shit to end, and for you to grow the fuck up, because whatever it is that you are doing is making my head hurt so much.






God, i'm so tired and i dont even know why the fuck i'm crying so much over this shit