Had an awful anxiety attack just now. I really don't know what I should or can do or perhaps I do know but I just won't let myself do it. What if I don't finish my paper? What if i can't choose between the questions? What if I don't get to use any of that shit i memorised? What if I can't finish writing in time? What if I don't get an A1. I think I'm more afraid of how I'd react in whatever situation rather than the situation itself. I'm worried... If i let myself go and just start panicking right there in the exam hall. That would be too much... Right now I seem to have some what calmed myself a little and i have decided that the ultimate solution to my problem(s) is to bring tea tomorrow and yea wtv if all else fails i'll just suck on a tea bag

what a fucking nightmare next year would be for somebody as weak as me

Ps was shaking so badly I spilt hot water on my index finger while attempting to make tea earlier and it is fucking red now like redder than my face was last night which is cray cray scary red