Really don't want to be a part of anything anymore.
Not even this, it's so fucking painful.
Just listen to that.


talking to mel today made me realise something about myself... I can't bring myself to keep a consistent diary for nuts because in the end it gets too darn tiring to think about everything that's going on every now and then. Yet at the same time i cant bring myself to start a private blog cuz that's that all over again. i guess every now and then i just resort to blogging.... on here. but there arises the issue on publicity and the funny thing is when i attempt to be vague i no longer have a clue about who i am once it all ends. it's like it's all still in there