I don't even think I am upset. I think I might be happy, if anything. really confused about... everything. Maybe this is 'growing up' as we call it. Well I can't seem to come to terms with that fact.

I feel so disconnected from the rest of the world; been living in my little bubble for quite abit.

What is it that I need... i want. A best friend? Confidante? I think I could do with or without either.

My world is literally empty. I can't hear a thing. Can't seem to feel a thing anymore. I doubt I'd wince if you threw a punch right straight in my face. The irony... when just barely a few days back I was streaming my ass off with anger... annoyance at the things that people do (probably unknowingly) that upset me. My ears hurt from all that ringing. tiniest twinge of pain from all that crying on the inside

What is it that I want

Who the fuck am I
I don't know how to behave. how i want others to view me... percieve me as. can't seem to make a natural decision any longer. none of this is coming to me as it should. naturally. like breathing. movement. I don't know how to move, which part of my body to move. how to control. how to psycho myself into thinking what i should be thinking.
identity?
i'd like to have one

Am I making sense?