It's the loneliest feeling in the world - to find yourself standing up when everyone else is sitting down. To have everybody look at you and say "what's the matter with her?" I know what it feels like. Walking down an empty street, listening to the sound of your own footsteps. Shutters closed, blinds drawn, doors locked against you. And you aren't sure whether you're walking toward something, or if you're just walking away.

Maybe I'm crazy but to me, laughing makes everything okay. Laugh. Just laugh. Laugh without a god damned care in the world, while you can. People will stare, judge you in the silence of their minds or behind phone calls and text messages, bitch about you even. They don't even have to know your name, they'll be capable of all sorts of treachery. Just laugh, because crying is no longer an option when there is all the attention in the world and more out there, waiting to be seeked for, to criticize the weak ones.