Who have I been kidding? I have long given up on myself along with everyone else around me.

Its 1.05am right now, and CTs start tomorrow. I have barely revised 1/4 of what I have to for SS tomorrow let alone start on homework. I am also exhausted as hell so ironically, I made myself run 3 kilometres. Oh I broke my record.

I can never allow myself to forget this night. I can not afford to let it happen again. I can't fucking screw up again damn it.