Is launching myself into all this a good idea? I know it'll hurt so damn much. Already does. You know how i feel about you. I've been doing all this mainly for my sake i know how freaking selfish that is. But it's gonna save so much pain rather than continuing I swear. Not talking to you, ignoring you. Yet when you do the same, it gets unbearable. Like now. Why did you do that for. Because i'm talking to her instead? I hope that's it, because you know fucking hell well how much i miss you. I miss everything. Talking to you till midnight every single day. Up till the past month. That was when I knew it was getting unbearable. I can't have you. Got to accept that fact.